Siddhartha's view on his life
Siddhartha talks about how he had been through many phases in his beliefs. When he was a boy he was into sacrifices and gods. Later on he was an ascetic and learned to fast and deal with the weather. After his brush with the shramanas he goes and learns from the great Buddha Gotama. With Kamala he learned about the joy of love and with Kamaswami he learned the ways of business. He thought he was stooping to a new level of ill minded thought when he wanted to go suicide in the river. When he heard the word om he felt like he has slept properly and awoken properly for the first time in one hundred years. But he also feels like he has come all this way only to become a child again. He feels like he has become a fool in thinking suicide is the way to enlightenment. I think he is trying to say that this is kind of like his second awakening and he feels reborn again.

Avery Valerio